Sire

I was thinking how the way Sire spoke about his mother and sisters. I felt an overwhelming joy because he understand the world of women. Then he will be able to understand me. Put up with me, discipline me, punish me when need be. I stand before him with such power and he stands before me with power ever more. The logical reasoning is that I prayed for a man like him years ago. I know he is imperfect, I know he is not the popular Dominant on the block and he is the best kept secret of the best Dominant in my eyes. I am going to help him become even greater as a man. I feel its my duty as a woman of color to represent him correctly. Allow him to lead because either way when he is not around I will be a reflection of him.

I remember when a Dominant was keeping me a secret, hiding the fact that he really cared about me from his submissive and I couldn't understand why. For the life of me. I remember feelings lower than low. When I knew I was the one that would have enhanced him internally. When I walked away, he tried to hold on to make me wait until she was ready because she was so jealous of me.
My father had to bring my spirit back because I was damaged as a result that was about three years ago. However, that same Dominant stalks, hopes and prays no one finds me. Oh but God saw fit for a rare individual to see me. You are that man. I see you.

I said all that to say this. I am not even yours and you put me on your fetlife page. If only you could see the tears in my eyes. I feel so special that you have me on your page Sire. I am very grateful and I am not yours not in consideration nothing---You aint blind. You see potential. You see the truth. You see a real submissive woman. I am forever grateful.

I posses a feminine power that I embrace daily but I have a lovely power of surrender to give one day. I want that man to be you.

Thank you for being you, being so patient so sweet but yet strongly you.