The suffering

I literally couldn't sleep. my soul woke me this morning yearning so hard that I felt the emotions in my chest. The yearning is sacred and its calling me to come closer. When I think of the dark places he will take me. I melt.
Melt in a suffering that brings tears.

What is his vision. What does he want with me. We haven't even defined the basics of D/s but Im thinking we are finding the basics of us first. Everytime he opens up more of his heart? I smile. I have never came across a Dominant man who has a longing just as deep as mine.
When I am feeling this way. I listen to music that enchance my yearning.  Right now, I am listening to Beyoncé's "Speechless". She is one of the only singers where her man keeps her in a place of beautifully suffering.
*sigh*

He haunts me, I can hear his voice in my mind. This is not a frenzy, he is going patiently slow with me.

When he said, I need to lay my hands on you. Literally. He needs to lay hands on me. I wont break when he belt me, spank me, whip me, hold me by my throat...
Inhale my surrendering scent....
let me slide down to my face..on the floor...