why

Damn.

I know you had a wonderful time during the weekend. We had a discussion about leaving "emotionally". I know you are distant in nature so am I..but...I never shut myself off from you. I went ahead of you, when i was suppose to follow you. Some how you left and when I felt that feeling in your voice. I never been so scared.
I tried so hard to stay logical with you. You don't know but I had to let open my heart. I had to. No matter how much you hate the feeling of emotional clinginess. I am what I am. I am submissive, especially with a man of your nature.
When a Alpha female is in the world with a Alpha male...things change roles change..emotions come, territorial starts to arise. I never met a man who i can feel miles away. Even right now, you are far away emotionally.
Im not holding back with you to make you feel safe...anymore internally.

I love you.


im hurting. even if you are not. Pain is temporary right?

me