Open

Here i am free.
I am on vacation break and now I have time to think. To sit back and feel.

My heart is open wider than it has since I wrote my heart to Sire. We have been through some ups and downs over the past few months.
However, that is apart of life but the beauty of all of it is that he switched on my surrender.

He gave me an assignment explaining my "submission". Since, I am a logical thinker most of the time. I gave him my logical view of my submission. However,  I didn't feel right afterwards. I didn't feel...right.

I have been his submissive for close to a year and I just had to re write my submission from my very heart.

My heart spilled forth so many emotions, and I just felt my spirit spilling over. I couldn't end explaining my submission in a writing. I went to explaining my submission in text messages to daddy.
I am leaking everywhere. Vulnerable. Scared. Needy. Aching.

I kept asking myself what is going to think of me. Oh no, my heart is showing.  My mind wanted to grab a shirt to place it over my heart but my heart whispered, "No. don't cover up. He needs to know."

I was in blissful tears as I opened up. I left my heart open. Its been awhile since, I have tapped into my surrendered state mentally.
I am good at showing my surrender in person while in the sweetest focus ever. I am human, I have flaws, weaknesses but overall there is nothing more precious than being open, fully exposed to Sire.

No matter what, I have to be true to myself. I have the courage to surrender. I have the courage to be open to Sire..
Even when I am shaking in my bones.
He deserves to know me all of me.
I am forever vulnerable and open.